Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Illness strikes

I came home from work sick today. I have no idea what's wrong. I think it has something to do with the interaction between birth control and synthroid and perhaps also lack of sleep (though I don't consider 7 hours a lack). I hate, hate these vague symptoms. I feel tired, nauseous and faint. Oh, and I get goosebumps. It comes and goes, thus the post earlier today. If it's still around tomorrow after a good night's sleep, I'll be calling my endocrinologist.

If you've ever had cancer or been close to having cancer, these vague symptoms are worrisome. Has the cancer spread? Has it infected my lymph nodes? Is it just a matter of medication dosage? The body you once knew becomes mysterious. So emotional stress adds to the physical symptoms.

The kids--including an extra one--are playing a board game right outside my office door. I'm drowning them out with headphones (Rufus, again). There's nowhere else for them to go. I'm contemplating a bath. Don't know if writing will happen tonight. I want to, but depending on when the kids go to be, I'm not sure how late I can stay up. We'll see. I'm also having trouble in the upright position.